Yes, i Only have this weekend to finish all of that. I always try to make a schedule..like 2 hours for sumthin or a hour for sumthing then a lil break. But my schedule, no doubt, will become screwed up with workin.

I try not to think of other subject, but i have to do a speech n id literally rather jump off a building or go sky diving then have to talk in front of ppl. I have to tell them a personal experience, or a legend. So i have to start writing that but im not even close. And the vibrato thing..er, its just so hard to keep the violin up and being able to shake ur finger..is it up and down the string or side to side?? either way my finger wont work..i think its broke. =[

I really thought about it and well my piano teacher said that i needed to learn those music theory stuff for my piano theory..so i guess it might help but i just dont have the time for that..and piano. argh. I told sum ppl that i might want to quit orchestra and they were all like noooooooo it'll all get easier and stuff so i think id hate myself if i quit. As for a tutor..i cant afford it..I need a job but how could i be involved with a job when i have this much on my plate *sigh*.

As for the anxiety thing, I have to go to this building to get sumthing tested on me sumtime during school and stuff, But they havnt called back for my appointment yet.